Here's the scoop.

So, my father-in-law has lung cancer. It's a stage 3 squamous cell carcinoma of the lung. It has spread to his lymph nodes and his neck. He begins a 7-week intense combination of chemo and radiation (chemo for the lymph nodes, radiation for the mass in his lung) and then they'll reevaluate how he's responding to treatment. The doctors seem to think they can shrink this down far enough that they can possibly go in and remove parts of the mass.

He has developed pneumonia in the same lung the mass is located in and because the fluid is filled up behind the mass, he is literally only using his right lung to breathe. I was very concerned about this, but the doctors don't seem to be. I guess since I'm not a medical doctor, I should let the professionals do their job. I am worried that they're not really doing anything about the pneumonia. I guess time will tell.

As for me, I'm doing fine. I haven't been tracking my calories, but I'm still going to the gym 3-4 nights a week and getting a good 500-700 calorie burn. I'm not gorging, but I'm not cutting way back. I'm trying to live my life.

I was trying the calorie count thing on myfitnesspal, but I wasn't seeing any changes when I was tracking. This last week, I haven't tracked and tried to just be mindful and I'm down almost two pounds.

I don't seem to fit what works for other people. So I'm trying to just live my life without so many numbers (except weight) attached to it. I was almost getting anxiety with calculating calories I've eaten. I do still wear my HRM to track how many calories I burn. I always like to know what kind of a workout I get.

So, that's where I am. I'd still like to lose 30 by my 30th birthday. With my husband's dad, I don't know if the Vegas trip is in the cards. We have a new roof to be looking at as well as some possible car repairs to be made. That bums me out, but what can I do? I'm still crossing my fingers that we might be able to eek this trip out.